That was a very generous post, Jewel.
JewelSong wrote:Anthy, you are absolutely right about the series of deletions on B77. I honestly don't remember what the posts were about, or why I deleted them. I haven't been on B77 for a really long time and don't think I even know my password anymore.
I suspect it was in a fit of pique. B77 was a very volatile board and I am ashamed to say that I got caught up in much of the frenzy of personally insulting posts and back-biting that seemed to characterize the board sometimes. Deleting posts in a thread that had become too personal/difficult/ angry/insulting/whatever was my (admittedly immature) way of taking my ball and going home. Sort of like a "nuts to you all" gesture.
I'm not proud of it. But there you have it.
Which is probably why you think of deleting as passive-aggressive, since in your case, it was about taking your ball and going home. I honestly can't remember thinking that way, myself, as a motivation for editing.
In my very humble opinion, if you are guilty of anything, it is in overanalyzing and second-guessing how people MIGHT possibly, perhaps, maybe feel about one of your posts. Your fear of offending or upsetting ANYONE EVER is (or was) keeping you from posting some really interesting, thought-provoking and unique things. I thought (and still think) that is a damn shame.
Well, I could probably could choose to get defensive about this, but boy howdy, it's just too
true. If I had a dime for every time someone has told me I think too much... man, I'd have a
lot of dimes.
You aren't HURTING me...or anyone, really. As Alatar said, I am not lying awake at night because people have deleted or edited posts.
Well, honestly, I'm not losing any sleep, either. I came, I heard, I adjusted my habits. That works.
There was one poster who I am sure I did hurt, when they reflected back to me what my practice had looked like to them. That literally stopped me in my tracks. Mostly, I understand I just annoyed (some) people, to the point where it was bad enough for you to want to rant about it.
You weren't talking to me, originally, but I am honest enough to own up to my own faults. I did own this one.
If you want to continue to delete and edit for whatever reason, you have the perfect right to do so.
Well, I probably won't. Until I do, and then we can all laugh about it.
But I think it is much more interesting when you don't.
Well, thank you. But "interesting" covers a lot of ground, doesn't it?
Primula Baggins wrote:Jewel wrote:In my very humble opinion, if you are guilty of anything, it is in overanalyzing and second-guessing how people MIGHT possibly, perhaps, maybe feel about one of your posts. Your fear of offending or upsetting ANYONE EVER is (or was) keeping you from posting some really interesting, thought-provoking and unique things. I thought (and still think) that is a damn shame.
I could have posted this (though probably more Primmishly).
And maybe that's a rhetorical exaggeration of the thought you put into your posts. As I read some of them, though, I sometimes do find myself wondering what you're
not saying!
Are you talking to ME, here, missy?
I typically am
not saying quite a bit. Beware the poor messageboard if I didn't filter at all!